Every night I dream about my funeral.
I see the flowers, hear the music, hear my mother crying… sometimes she doesn’t, because I’ve somehow convinced her it was for the best I went, that I needed to go. It’s a strange experience, thinking about your own death. You’d think it’d be terrifying—I actually find it calming. I plan my funeral like I used to plan my wedding, I change the music and flowers every night. I always see different faces, too… ex-boyfriends, best friends, people I hate, people I love… it’s oddly satisfying, seeing them all there, watching their reactions. Sometimes  few of them will speak. But often, only the music will play and my mother cries.
What is interesting is the way I died is never mentioned. I am never aware of how it happened. The only thing I know is it is soon.
I wish I knew what was wrong with me.

Every night I dream about my funeral.

I see the flowers, hear the music, hear my mother crying… sometimes she doesn’t, because I’ve somehow convinced her it was for the best I went, that I needed to go. It’s a strange experience, thinking about your own death. You’d think it’d be terrifying—I actually find it calming. I plan my funeral like I used to plan my wedding, I change the music and flowers every night. I always see different faces, too… ex-boyfriends, best friends, people I hate, people I love… it’s oddly satisfying, seeing them all there, watching their reactions. Sometimes  few of them will speak. But often, only the music will play and my mother cries.

What is interesting is the way I died is never mentioned. I am never aware of how it happened. The only thing I know is it is soon.

I wish I knew what was wrong with me.

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