I just walked out of a vintage shop and it has been a great ending to a crappy day. Work was horrible and at times I just want to cry and give up. Lately I’ve been filled with a lot of despair but when I saw this I felt happy. I’m not sure exactly why. I’ve been fighting with my feelings a lot lately. I’m bi and I can’t seem to accept that. I hope that everything will turn out.
Wish me luck.
I really have every reason in the world to be happy. I’m going to go to an ivy league university. I have a great family, wonderful friends, but I’m not happy. There’s something missing and I have no idea what it is or if I’m ever going to find it. Last week, when I was looking through our storage room, I found a tattered yellow book marked ‘private,’ so, of course, I read it. It was my mom’s diary from when she was my age. I took it and I read it every night. I thought I knew my mom, I’m really close with her but as I read through her darkest fears and deepest secrets I realized that I don’t know her at all. Maybe this is how to fill the empty space: to keep searching for new meanings in what you think you know. I hope I can learn something new about what I know every day.
One day I was looking up an achievement guide on youtube.com for a specific achievement for Left 4 Dead 2 and I managed to find someone that had posted a guide. I watched the video, got the achievement, and decided to message the person on Xbox Live and see if they wanted to play sometime or would help me out. He said yes and promptly added me to his friend’s list. We talked and we played games together for a few months, and then became “friends.” Several months later, which is currently now, we’ve moved in together and plan on getting married. So, basically, I met my fiance thanks to Youtube, Microsoft, and video games. Honestly, I’ve never been happier.