I met the person I married young (20). Knew I always had an attraction for women but never acted on it. Had too many “close minded” beliefs to allow myself to explore these feelings. After nine years of marriage, I realized I could not do this anymore. I have no regrets. I have two beautiful daughters. I am great friends with my ex and am loving life.
So there’s this girl I have been attracted to since freshman year. We messed around and stayed in touch. We decided to live together with my two other friends. We have to hide that we are dating/sleeping together, because it would cause some awkward tensions because we are all females.
I’m a 19-year-old, white, American male.
- My hair began to gray at age 17.
- I have developed Peyronie’s Disease (an extreme and painful bend in the penis caused by a plaque deposit that rarely goes away and cannot be treated by medicine which can sometimes progress into full erectile dysfunction).
- I am a virgin and have never been in a relationship.
- I don’t know whether I’m straight, gay, or bisexual because of my lack of experience.
I fear I will live life alone because of all these things. I don’t know what keeps me going. Family? They are fine and all, but I can’t live through them. Why should I continue?
I came out when I was in 7th grade. I am about to be a senior in high school. Last February, I went to a LGBT conference. It was the first time I had ever been surrounded by people like me. I felt an incredible sense of community. One night, I was in an elevator, going to my room, intoxicated. A woman raped me. It was an incredible betrayal—my own community.
Last week I shaved my head to “rid myself” of the memory. It didn’t really work but I still feel freer. I do not feel like a victim, I feel like a survivor.
I’m young and inexperienced. My emotions fluctuate more often than the sun rises. I am extremely self-conscious.
A year ago, I met a girl that fixed all of this; she fixed me. I fell so madly in love with her that I didn’t even know how to cope with my rapidly progressing feelings.
I’m a girl.
She is “incapable” of being attracted to me.
I can only hope she finds someone to fix her too.
It started out with a simple hello. He recommended a song, and I went back to my dorm to listen to it. Eventually we started walking home from work. One day I saw him walking to the library on campus. He asked me for my number. On several occasions, he would ask me to study. This struck me as strange, because we did not have any classes together. This made me suspect that he liked me. I would spend many nights on the internet telling my friends about this person. They all agreed that he appeared to be interested.
One weekend a friend from high school came up to visit. This boy, my friend, and I were going to hang out. This boy and I decided to give my friend a late night tour of the university. We frolicked through the autumn leaves, broke out into rapturous song and dance, and eventually ended up sitting on a heat vent discussing serious things. We threw around our thoughts and feelings on religion and sexuality. Finally, he confessed that he was gay. My heart sunk inside.
I still hold these feelings for him. I don’t want to. In my head, I’m pathetic. I have never been in a relationship before, and I think that I never will.