Entries tagged with "future"
In one year I will be a commissioned officer in the US Army. It frightens me and drives me that people will trust me with their lives, the well-being of their families, and the safety of our future will be placed on my shoulders. I am worried that I won’t be able to bring everyone home and that some daughter or son will have to grow up without their father or mother. The stress has led me to drink and I am worried that I may become an alcoholic. I hope that I can live up to all the expectations that have been placed on me and that I can be a role model for others.
I have $24 in my bank account, and I start work in one month. Work, unfortunately and fortunately, is in San Bernardino, California. I have never been there. The story, I guess, will be getting from here to the desert on $24, and then the details.
I think that we really are getting a divorce. Part of that breaks my heart and another part of that leaves me very relieved. I’m not sure what I should do now. We aren’t there yet, still living together just not really ‘together’. I see her less these days. She’s always with someone else, having fun. I’m here alone at home, trying to figure out when it all went wrong.
I will be twenty within the next few days.
Today I realized that I have spent the last three years of my life watching the girl of my dreams slowly digging herself a hole that she will never get out of. This girl has ruined every relationship I have had since her, and when I break it off to be with her, she tosses me to the side where I sulk, waiting patiently for her to come to her senses. It hasn’t happened yet.
I believe that one of the most painful things to see, other than your own death, is to watch someone else slowly become their worst enemy through a series of poor decisions and some unsavory characters.
On top of that, I realized that I am the worst person ever. I am egotistical. I use people. I burn more bridges than I build. I put people down to make myself feel better. I am not a nice person. I am spiteful.
All of these things cease to exist when I’m with her, even if only for a split second. She brings out the best in me, or rather anything good that’s still left. Yet, she fails to realize it.
Maybe someday, she will finally get it.
I start college in the fall. I don’t know what I want to do with my life anymore. It scares me. I have no real passion for anything, anymore.
All I really want is to have a baby. I know it’s not a smart thing to do right now, and I’m definitely waiting. But I’ve wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember, and all I ever wish is to just be 10 years older.
I am a 20 year old, heathy girl. I’m in college, and a sorority, with a job I work hard at. I get decent grades, have friends who would be there for me not matter what, and a family who truly loves me.
But I have suicidal thoughts.
I’m plagued my sudden urges to drive my car over the guard rail, and off the overpass. These urges are accompanied by the thought that none of my stress would matter if I wasn’t alive. That scholarship I haven’t applied for wouldn’t be relevant. My terrible spending habit would be obsolete.
I am a girl who has the world ahead of her, and wants nothing to do with it.
I met my boyfriend online. I know, I know… weird, right? I didn’t think much of it either, but we talked every night for months after that. Strangest thing, we just had the most amazing connection. I have never felt anything so close to a soul mate before. Last month, he flew here to visit me and I lost my virginity to him the first night after smoking some weed. I know that everything about that sounds wrong, but it was actually the best way it could have happened. We fell asleep that night in each others’ arms, and he asked me to be his girlfriend the next day. Sure, the distance is torture, but I love him, and I’m very confident that its mutual. I laugh at the thought of ever wasting my time with any other guy in the past. He’s so different, I’m never worried that he’ll hurt me. He’s planning on moving here for me. After that, we’ll work on marriage. Having been so fortunate to have love put before me in the most fate-controlled way I’ve ever experienced has brought me hope for the future. I hope you’re just as lucky as I am, just keep searching and you will find love.
I’m a seventeen year old girl who doesn’t want to stop being childish. I sometimes feel like my life has no set path, and most times I can’t answer when people ask me what I want to do after high school. But you know what? That’s okay. I can’t see into the future, and if I could I’m sure things would be a lot less adventurous. But if I had to wish, I would say that I would want to live my life being awesome, respected and free. Money? As long as I get by I’ll be fine. I want love, happiness and a peaceful environment to live in. Is that too much to ask? Is that the right thing to answer for what I want to do after high school? I’m already blessed with happiness (for the most part), love, respect from friends and for the most part a peaceful state of mind and environment. I wouldn’t mind living like this for the rest of my life! Can I do it?
Wish me luck lovies, I’m off to chase this adventure!
I am 22 just graduated two months, did not think it was going to be this hard, decided not to go back home. Decided to stay out here where I tought I belong, so far I been doing whatever job the wind blows towards me. I am happy I am grateful God has blessed me with good people every where I go. But I am scared. I am scared that this is all its going to be, living paycheck from paycheck without nothing else. I am scared that I will not move forward and Ill be stuck in this same setting. But I am hopeful I have faith. And I will keep walking.
I am 15 and I’m pregnant by a 20 year old. It’s not the best way to live a normal teen-aged life but I deal with it as it comes at me. I feel so lost I miss my ex, he has my heart and always will. You really don’t understand how scared I am about all this and I have never really told anyone about my feelings toward all this until now. Im 15 I’m “emo” but more recently I have found god. I cried in church when they prayed for me.
For the first time in my life I felt like there are good people in this world. I don’t know what to do anymore but I’ll take it as it comes
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