Entry #0547
I fall into the number two slot on my boyfriend’s priorities. Number one: Magic the Gathering.
I fall into the number two slot on my boyfriend’s priorities. Number one: Magic the Gathering.
So, my boyfriend of forever and ever just broke up with me. More like, it was mutual but I don’t want to admit that I had anything to do with it. I’d rather be the victim, but at some point I have to admit that I have been self-sabotaging our relationship for a couple of months. I just don’t have the guts to break someone’s heart. I’ve dated one guy or another for five years straight and really do NOT know how to be single. Here’s to hoping I don’t wake up in a stranger’s bed this weekend.
I lie to my boyfriend every day.
I tell him I don’t know why I’m so exhausted all the time, or why I can’t sleep like a normal person. I tell him I’ll ask my doctor about my sleeping problems.
None of that is true.
My depression’s taking such a hold on me. I can’t even bring myself to lift my head up enough so I’m not constantly looking at the floor. I always blame it on being tired. I laugh at things I shouldn’t laugh at so he will think that, though I’m tired, I’m happy.
He tries so hard. I can’t bear to let him know that my disease is back, and that this time he can’t fight it.
I met my boyfriend online. I know, I know… weird, right? I didn’t think much of it either, but we talked every night for months after that. Strangest thing, we just had the most amazing connection. I have never felt anything so close to a soul mate before. Last month, he flew here to visit me and I lost my virginity to him the first night after smoking some weed. I know that everything about that sounds wrong, but it was actually the best way it could have happened. We fell asleep that night in each others’ arms, and he asked me to be his girlfriend the next day. Sure, the distance is torture, but I love him, and I’m very confident that its mutual. I laugh at the thought of ever wasting my time with any other guy in the past. He’s so different, I’m never worried that he’ll hurt me. He’s planning on moving here for me. After that, we’ll work on marriage. Having been so fortunate to have love put before me in the most fate-controlled way I’ve ever experienced has brought me hope for the future. I hope you’re just as lucky as I am, just keep searching and you will find love.
I have a polyamorous marriage that is very successful. My husband is largely interested in men, and I’m bi. I’m very excited because right now I have a little boyfriend, and one that is much younger than me! It is so exciting to simultaneously experience the rush of a new infatuation AND the mature and developed love that I share with my husband.
This lifestyle isn’t for everyone, but it works for me.
My boyfriend does not think I am interesting. That’s just because we had completely different childhood experiences. I don’t mean to be this way, but I have too many responsibilities and financial concerns to be as open-minded. Hopefully one day we will meet in the middle. One day! But I still love him. He makes me the happiest I have ever been.